Karate wa
yu no goto shi taezu natsudo wo ataezareba moto no mizu ni kaeru.
Karate
is like boiling water. If not given heat, it will go cold.
The difficulty is working out how
to get the heat back on. After a bit of self-reflection I know that I’m guilty
of happily working on the things that I know I can do. I like the comfort zone.
It’s…..well… comfortable. Mindfully
though, I know that the comfort zone isn’t what will generate the heat needed
to boil my metaphorical karate water.
The Comfort Zone
The Learning Zone
The Panic Zone
(a good read if you have a few
minutes).
Ultimately I think it begins with
confronting your weaknesses. If you continue in your comfort zone only working
at what you’re good at you’re only going to get better at what you’re good at. But
it’s hardly a challenge, not enough energy to bring things to that boil.
Stepping out of the comfort zone,
looking at your weaknesses, braving the scary waters of what you’re not good
at. That’s what will bring the energy, the heat needed to get your karate
bubbling nicely.
So, following that mindset, what
are my weakness? Alas, I think they’re probably
numerous but there are a few of which I’m particularly conscious.
1) Kata.
For me
the weakness in kata isn’t learning the pattern (I’m usually pretty okay with
that – although for some reason Empi is giving me some serious brain ache at
the moment). Nor is it the techniques (for the most part I’m okay with those).
The weakness in my kata is intensity. Kime ultimately, I guess. I struggle to put some “umph” in my
kata. I used to be quite a fiery personality but age and two kids has
mellowed me somewhat and I don’t find it easy to put venom in my kata
performance. Couple that with the fact that I actually find the rhythm of kata
quite soothing and it means my kata tend to look a little laid back. As my
Shihan has said to me before… like I’m enjoying it a little too much. Short of
getting my fellow karateka to put me in a bad mood before every kata session
I’m not quite sure how to deal with this. Visualising my opponent helps some. I
think I might just have had a “eureka” moment though so I’ll move onto the next
weaknesses and see where that thought leads me.
2) Kumite.
Ahhhh.
Kumite. The bain of my Martial Arts existence. Is it truly weird for someone
who loves karate to hate fighting so much? That’s the problem here. I just. don’t. like. sparring. There, I said
it. Shoot me now! Prior to starting karate classes two years ago I had never
really intentionally tried to hit anything or anyone (maybe once but I was
about 7 so I don’t think that counts). It was a completely alien concept to me
and it took me a while to get my head around.
Sparring then, the most difficult element of karate from my point of
view, because I don’t really like trying to hit people, and I don’t really love
getting hit (who does, really?). It’s
also the worse element for me because I find it really difficult to see any
progress in myself in this area. I must be getting better somewhere along the
line or I’d be having my arse handed to me by white belts all the time but I
just can’t see the progression. Maybe it’s because even after all this time I
still feel awkward and clumsy and bumbling when I’m sparring. Kumite is the
point in my karate where I’m certain someone is going to come bounding into the
dojo and shout “Oi, you with the brown belt (did I mention I made 2nd
Kyu by the way, I can’t remember) you total faker, you should not be here, be
off with you, you charlatan”. I feel like I’m going to get “found out” any
minute. I’m thinking it might be a clue to the Kata weakness though. I’m beginning to see a tie in here.
3) Breathing.
Despite
my many protestations in class (usually when my lips have turned blue after a
sparring bout or a long kata) that “Breathing is for wimps” I really think I
need to start working on this one! How it is possible for someone to forget to
breathe? Honestly? I get so hyper
focused on the task at hand that I forget the most intrinsic of bodily
functions. Stupid. Dangerous. Not good.
I’ve been trying to work on this with some “Awareness of Breath”
techniques but I can’t even get that right. Breathing in for the count of
three, hold for three, breathing out for three. Trying to focus just on the
breath whilst counting. Who would have thought counting to 10 was so damn hard?
I can barely get past 3 before I’m distracted from my breathe by some errant
thought or outside distraction. I think there’s definitely a link to this
weaknesses and the kata issue too.
Tying all
that up then. I’m struggling with kata intensity, kumite and breathing and the
“eureka” moment is that maybe all these things are connected. I don’t like
sparring so I have difficulty seeing the kata form in terms of a fight scenario.
Which means it’s hard to get that fight level intensity in there. When I am
sparring or doing kata I focus so much on the techniques that I forget to
breathe, which means I can’t get the tension/intensity levels right in the kata
techniques and in sparring I’m not getting my brain and muscles fuelled with
enough oxygen to be able to think well enough around the fight.
Lots to
think about for me in terms of getting out of my comfort zone and getting my
karate back on the boil. Apologies if
this is something of a karate brain dump. I haven’t really thought about my
karate in such an analytical way for a while and it seems to have all spilled
out once I got going!
Food for
thought for sure. All this talk of boiling has made me want a brew though ….
Off to put the kettle on.
TTFN

Marie, Marie, what can I say. First welcome back to blogging - that's something you are definitely good at, so it is nice to hear from you again! Secondly congratulations on reaching 2nd kyu, no mean feat. Alas though you've also reached the plateau stage where progress seems to come to a halt and motivation can be a problem. We all go through it girl - the best thing is to accept that it's a normal part of the learning cycle and just continue training - train your way through it. It can last a while but you WILL get through it. 2nd kyu is so near yet so far from black belt it almost seems cruel! Perhaps its time to focus on your own training and give up the teaching for a while (assuming you are still doing this). It's hard to focus properly on both and perhaps you just need to be the student again for a while? Any way I'm gunning for you so keep blogging about it :-)
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